Today has been a day of many tears. A little less than two months ago I lost my dad. Today’s date does not hold any significance that would trigger more emotions and tears than usual. But today I have struggled to keep the tears from flowing, the sobs from being heard, and my heart from feeling heavy.
My dad fought cancer for 17 1/2 years, and every time the doctor told us the lymph nodes had grown and we need to do chemo again, there was a heaviness in our heart. After 8, 10, 12, 16 weeks of treatment, we would get the news that the lymph nodes had shrunk and he is all good. The heaviness was replaced with relief.
Since January 13th, I have had the heaviness in my heart, but I know the relief will never come again. Now there is only emptiness.